Sunday, October 10, 2010

fear of recovery

These days I'm not so obsessed
with being medicine for someone else
your anti-depressant
your clonezapam

I lie in bed, chemicaless
no white tablets
no words to fill my heart with swaying
and I'd like to say

that I like it
but some days I am just so bored
I want to be over it, I want to be sane
but if I reach the day where your voice

doesn't make my stomach ache
but instead, I feel nothing,
not even anger
then that seems like

I'd be much worse than feeling anything else.

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