one more from high school

You're such a perfect boy now
Such a perfect man, now, I might say
But I must confess
You're so much better when you're unsatisfied

Because I never loved you more
Than when you were flawed and fruitless
Young but useless
And when angered, ruthless

I never knew you were beautiful
Until I saw the tears in your eyes
Trapped inside a hard, hard shell

No, I couldn't love you more
Than when you are cold and desperate
Waiting for the comedown in the back of your car

No, I couldn't love you more
Than when you're body is soaked
Standing in the shower with all your clothes on
Just letting to water run down

No, I couldn't love you more
Than when you're fast and breathless
Yanking off your necklace
Hurling it into the nearest garbage can

So curse the girls that make you hurt
And bring back your warm, if reluctant embrace
Lay your body down in my bed
And I'll just sleep on the floor
I will just sleep on the floor

I listen to you breathe
Counting the seconds between the ins and outs
Making sure we didn't get ourselves too strung out
Making sure we didn't take too much this time
Making sure we didn't kill ourselves this time